you are a...delight!

i love sundays.

church with the fam. delicious shanghai buffet. generally lazy afternoon. usually, i make plans to go work out that never...EVER! come to fruition. today, in lieu of doing anything healthy for me, mommy and i went to stein mart and shopped (where i proceeded to spend money i really don't have on clothes that i kind of need but not really), picked up some movies at the blockbuster, and then came home and went through my clothes to get rid of all the junk i no longer wear nor fit into but still have emotional attachments to anyways.

i am stressed out. between missing the boy, being out of town for the past 4 days, writing a novel for work, planning decorations for a gala event (for $300...yes, you read that right, $300! how can i do that?) and being in and out of town for the next few pivotal weeks before all the HUGE events...i am CRAZY! however, going out of town is sure to be super amazing and will provide a little respite from all the chaos here in the pensy. and, AND i get to see my suities. woot woot!

i miss boy. terribly. and i am worried about him. they stranded him out in the desert on friday afternoon with no food and only a week's worth of training to survive. here's the thing...he likes to eat as much as i do (and most people lose about 20 pounds during that week)...and he doesn't get to for the next 6 days and i know he is going to be so hungry and so sick and so in pain...i don't like to think about it too much; it makes me hurt. i worry about the interrogation techniques they are going to use on him...the beatings, the psychological manipulation they are going to subject him to. and i can't talk to him and make sure he is okay and tell him i love him and that i think about him constantly and that i miss him and...

well you get the point. he is the one who has changed my life like no person ever has before. he has made me complete. and i feel empty when i can't be with him, and so alone right now that i can't talk to him. but i know we will be together soon and i can't wait! until then, we will be frolicking about in my dreams!