okay...he is AMAZING. so last night i got to see TNB for the first time in a few weeks...i hate that feeling, like i don't know where we stand and how i should greet you, but right when i saw him he kissed me and OMG i was happy. anyways, so he decided he wanted to cook for me so we go to the grocery store and pick out all the loot and then go back to his house and start crafting our tasty delish dinner. after almost causing a grease fire and using about every pan in his cabinet, dinner was ready and really really good. he is a pretty good cook actually; i approve of the meal. even if it was horrible i still would've loved it. i don't think anyone has ever cooked for me. so it was nice.

so let me continue the ways that this guy is splendid. he massages my feet. all the time. HEAVEN. he has my vote right there. and he laughs at my jokes. and he has PERFECT teeth. whoa. i heart a guy with great teeth. and the prettiest blue eyes. it's been a while since i actually dated someone with blue eyes, but i remember i like them very very much. i love that he is just a few inches taller than me and so i don't have to stretch up too much or crane my neck to look at him. he is like the goldilocks porridge....JUST RIGHT. i catch him looking at me, and sometimes i pretend i am sleeping when he kisses my forehead or brushes my hair out of my eyes. just because i want him to keep doing it. SWOON. okay, seriously steph, snap out of it and move on.

so you seem wonderful now oh my little schmooper...but, like my friend spendqueen, there are def things you are gonna find out about me sooner or later...like:
1. i am not always really peppy and randar and funny; i am right now just because i am so stoked around you all the time and i can't contain myself. but soon i will be over the giddy stage (but wouldn't it be great if i never got over that stage...superb).
2. i don't censor what i say...you want to know the truth? ask me.
3. my hair is not always styled perfectly. or the same color as the day before.
4. i don't always dress so cute. oh wait, i do.
5. i am actually really sensitive and not as detached as i act (like, hello, i am falling for you...)
6. i have a retail therapy problem. and i think you are a 'bargain' kind of guy. we can work on that. just as long as you realize i need to be adored.
7. i have a lisp. more on some days (like when i am tired) than others.
8. i get zits all the time, but somehow my skin has been perfect since i met you. wait until a big one comes. i will talk about it all the time and maybe even make you feel it.
9. i love love love to kiss you. wait, you know that too.
10. my friends and family are the most important things to me. no questions. so since you haven't been around that long, you come 3rd...or maybe somewhere else down that list, i haven't decided.
11. i tell my friends everything. get used to it.
12. i think about you at work. more than i should. and i have really weird little daydreams in my mind...some really quite funny actually. and them some that i don't think i would EVER tell you about.
13. speaking of thinking...even though i talk a lot and am very candid...i only say about 38.9% of what actually goes through my mind. especially if it involves you or is of the serious nature.

okay back to the synopsis. so we watch some tv, he massages my feet (i will do anything right about now...he would be holding all the cards if he scratched my back and tickled my arm...), and then we watched a movie i told him was amazing. i need to stop recommending movies, bc well, this one was not so amazing. it was entertaining and good and everything, but it wasn't as great as i remember. and i like all movies and most music, so if you want a discerning opinion, don't ask me.

anyways, it was a great time last night. i need to watch out and find out what he is up to because i don't really want to fall any further if i'm the only one going down. so we need to clarify that and i can't wait to hear his super cute PA accent when we do.

i was reading hppyheather's blog and came across one of my favorite quotes...
'it's not having what you want...it's wanting what you got.' good one, sheryl. :)

brace yourself for more maniacal rambling tomorrow.